{I'm Resurrected}




So far, the responses that I've garnered from the general public are as follows:


Sawyi: *screams*
Jonathan: "Why so short?"
Vennesa: thought I was YongMing a la successful dieting scheme.
Mrs Bala: "Did you join NCC?"
Mr Justin: "Did you lose a bet?"
WeiJun: *stares*
ChuanHeng: "BOTAK! BOTAK!"
Michelle: "Ohmygosh!" *touches my hair*
Dyan: "Benson, is that you?"
Javan: "Cancer patient?"
Junboon: "Nice one!"
Edmund: "Nice hairstyle!"



The excuses I've gave so far; it dropped off, I did it because I was too stressed, and that my girlfriend made me do it to prove that I love her. Of course, none of these are true. Haha.

I'd like to think that in the end, amidst the myriad of responses, Siying won.



Here's another funny one.


Dorothy: *walks into prefect's room*
Myself: Dorothy, I know my fringe is too long, but I promise that today I will go and cut it. Sorry. *acts innocent*
Dorothy: *stares*



I've just caused about as big an impact in my classroom as Britney had on the world when I appeared in class with a shaved head.

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In the pictures, he might look happy and contented on the outside. But beyond the physical plane of existence lies an injured heart, bruised and wounded. He misses the people that he held dear in his heart. With every step they take away from him, another splinter pierces his diamond heart, filling his psyche with the numbing pain of yet another harsh winter.


...a plant with springy, strong tendrils shot up from the ground around the raven, and coiled itself around the raven, binding him tightly to the ground, just in front of the diadem so stubbornly fixed into the ground. ... He constantly tried to free himself, picking furiously at the tendrils of the plant with his beak, but it just would not give way. The raven was bonded there, and could not escape at all.

Observing the diadem being bonded together with the necklace, bonded tightly like lovers in the heat of fiery passion, became pure torture for him. The raven had fallen in love with it at first sight, and now that he was so near it, but yet could not reach out and claim it for his own, he felt like he was being mocked by the Garden. It was like being captured in a cage, being pinched and poked by demons, and plucked of all his feathers; stripped of all his dignity, devoid of all his pride. He was being tortured, and his tears just would not flow.



But on the bright side, there's always a doctor to nurse one's wounds.


No worries, any time. What's a bro for. :)



The simplest words can brighten up anyone's day. I love my brothers in Christ. =D.

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Benson blogged at 1/31/2008 09:40:00 PM.
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{I'm sawing myself in half.}


I'm spending more and more time with Sawyi nowadays, and I find her to be quite nice. I find her to be a good person to talk to, and she's also very entertaining to talk to when you're feeling down because she'll do something weird to make you laugh like crazy.

I'm finding my school work to be getting to me. I think my workload's really sawing me into half; sometimes I wonder why the hell I chose to enroll in the triple science stream. Looking back at what Mdm Oen said on Friday, triple science is no longer a very smart choice if you want a stable foundation for your O's. Also, when I look at other classes like 3S2.. I suddenly feel very empty inside. Most of my good friends are in S2, and to me, they seem like a very tight-knit class even though it's just the third week of school. I could be wrong, but whatever. And when I look back at how my class performed at the workshop on Monday, I wonder why I chose triple science in the first place. And it's probably too late to appeal as well. And besides, I think that only very few people in S2 remember me anyway. Whenever I walk past my ex-classmates, I feel that only Cat Bro, Kiwi, Josh, Darren and Wei Kiat will acknowledge my presence. And I wonder to myself; What about the others? do they still treat me as their friend? Do I have an attitude problem that everybody's shunning me for, or is it because they think that all triple science students are snobbish and stuck-up? (By the way, not all of us are.) To further prove my statement, the group of guys that I used to hang out during recess with in '07 all "pangseh-ed" me during recess today. Am I no longer a friend to them anymore?

When I was in Secondary One, I thought that I could make a lot of friends and become the sort of person that I truly wanted to be. But now, it's like my friends are leaving me for greener pastures. Is this human nature, out with the old and in with the new, or am I thinking too much?

For a guy who used to be a loner during primary school, friendship was like a treasure to him in secondary school. But now that it's taken from him, he aches for it a lot more than he used to, because he tasted its sweetness and then lost it again. Or is this just a case of not treasuring your things and then only coming to pine for it only when you lose it?

Damn, I want a change of class.

However, now that I reflect upon my life these few days, during worship on Sunday, God reached out to me in a manner so subtle, but beautiful in its simplicity. It was "Hosanna" by Hillsong.


Heal my heart and make it clean;
Open up my eyes to the things I've seen,
Show me how to love like You have loved me!
Break my heart for what breaks Yours,
Everything I had for Your Kingdom's cause,
As I walk from Earth into Eternity!!



I've learnt a very valuable lesson from dear Nick Vujicic; God is not interested in changing your circumstances, but your heart. I believe that God will help to soothe my aching heart and make me clean, and let me love my class for who they are, and not for who I wish they are. God will open my eyes to the true beauty of the people in my class, and will show me how to love them like He loves us. I know I can be a living testimony of God's power in my class. Why am I so sure?

I trust my father.

So God, I'm yours.

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Benson blogged at 1/15/2008 08:37:00 PM.
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{Triple}


I went out with Sawyi and Siying on Friday for lunch at Long John Silvers, and I am thoroughly amazed at the amount of chilli sauce the two of them can consume. I helped them select assessment books, and I can say that I'm really inspired by the amount of time and effort the two girls are willing to put into their studies to ensure that they get good results. This makes me wonder- did I neglect my studies last year? Unlike Sawyi, who ascended about 10 places along the level position ranking, did I drop by 12 places because I didn't put in enough effort and took my studies for granted?

After watching Sawyi and Siying purchase their assessment books, I feel inspired to join them too. This year, I want to put in my best effort to catch up on my studies. I want to shop for assessment books too!!

(Is this a strong determination to do my best in academics this year, or a cry of attention my desire to shop is emitting? o_O)

I went to the library with them to "study", and ran into Cat Bro and gang there. Somehow, they thought I was on a date with Sawyi. LOL.

Yesterday, I went to "Impulse- A Youth Health Symposium" with Stephanie, Jasmine and Lifeng. I actually found the symposium very interesting and enlightening, but I think that if the duration was shorter it'd have been better. Lol. After the symposium, we went to Plaza Singapura, because Jasmine and myself felt that it'd be a wasted trip if we went to Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station and didn't visit PS. (More evidence that there's something in me urging to shop, LOL.) And I tried the Fried Mars bar that I've heard so much about from Sawyi, Gabbie and Josh. It was quite a taste treat, albeit a bit overpriced at S$3.20.

I think we're a bit naive. The signboard mentioned "4 pieces", and we took it that we would get 4 Mars bars for $3.20. When the final product reached us, we realised that "4 pieces" meant that one Mars bar was cut up into four pieces, and then fried and served. What a cunning marketing strategy. I feel duped. 0_0

Kenneth sent me "Uptown Girl" a la Alvin and the Chipmunks at cell group meeting. I find it so much cuter than Westlife's version, so I set it as my ringtone. =D.

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Benson blogged at 1/13/2008 07:56:00 PM.
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{Uptown Girl}


I've been humming this song to myself ever since that discussion Joel, Shaun and myself had in Burger King on December 31st about the structure of boyband songs.



I personally find one particular moment of this song incredibly awe-inspiring to me. The vocal part "oh oh oh oh" part in the middle of the song really makes me wonder how the Westlife boys do it. LOL. I've been trying to sing it; I can only do it if I try not to breathe at all and hold all my energy in my chest and release it slowly so I can only make at best a "oomph-less" copy of the original sound. o.O

Yep, it's working. I'm forgetting my crush, and letting go of my heartache bit by bit. =D.

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Benson blogged at 1/08/2008 09:54:00 PM.
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{1R3. <3}


I'm damn shagged from the orientation. Shagged, but feeling a warm sense of satisfaction burning in my chest. Even though my voice is kinda hoarse (and just in time for the debate auditions on Wednesday!!) I still enjoyed myself thoroughly because I've played a part in nurturing 40 young talents in Fuhua!!

On the first day, I found my class to be neutral ground because I didn't really spend much time with them. Second day was no different because I had normal lessons with my new class. On the third day, I began to really appreciate my class and know them as individuals. The 1R3 prefect leaders, Tiffany, Dan Lim, Kai Xin, Joshua and myslf, helped them to learn a dance in just one afternoon, and we performed and won the "best performance" prize!! R3 got really high from the campfire, and I can really say I enjoyed myself through and through.

I have a huge stomach. Throughout the day, I drank 2 bottles of Kickapoo, one bottle of grape tea, two bottles of apple tea, three Milos, and ate one curry bun (I see why Cat Bro was addicted to it last year), two mixed rice and a lot of satay and prata. The bottomless pit within me has been awakened. Mwahaha. At night, we had a party, and Leon Ang opened a bottle of shaken Pepsi and it exploded all over me. O.o

We had a conference at night till 2AM, discussing Japanese murder cases and Singaporean ghosts and spooks. We had quite a fun time discussing the Saw franchise, saying how Saw Yi is NC-16 material (Saw Yi sounds roughly like "Saw I" in Mandarin). We then watched Scary Movie IV from Alvin's lappy. We had a great deal of fun, and I now feel that it's damn fun to camp in school. Even though I slept a mere 3-plus hours. =D

Next day was mass dance (CHICKEN DANCE LULZ). I think R3 is the best class ever. All the R3 students are so sporting and enthusiastic, and even though we were all suffering from sore throats and sleeplessness we all cheered like nobody's business!! This leads me to wonder.. Why wasn't my class like that??!

I just have to say I give God all the glory, for allowing us to have a good campfire, and enjoy ourselves thoroughly the entire duration of camp, and being with us all the way!!

Goodness, I'm looking forward to mentoring my bunch. =D

P.S. I'm a damn pig, guys. I slept from 3PM on Saturday till 7AM Sunday. During this period, I received 3 SMSes, 1 missed call, one alarm, and my parents shaking me violently trying to wake me up, and I slept through everything without waking up at all. I must have been shagged. o.O

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Benson blogged at 1/06/2008 09:44:00 PM.
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{Some random photos}




My cell group got a photo on Sunday. By the way, I think I look silly in every picture I've taken this week. The top row consists of (from left to right) me, Bran and Darren. The bottom row consists of Shaun, Tai San and Gabriel, who all happen to be from the same school. At the appreciation dinner, we all had one question when we saw the picture:

"Why does Tai San look so depressed?"

Well, that just remains to be seen.

This is another random shot I found on Wikipedia.




Fucking (IPA: [ˈfʊkɪŋ]; rhymes with "looking") is an Austrian village in the municipality of Tarsdorf[2], in the Innviertel region of western Upper Austria.[3] ...

Fucking's most famous feature is a traffic sign with its name on it, beside which English-speaking tourists often stop to have their photograph taken. It is a commonly stolen street sign.[5] Significant amounts of public funds are spent on replacing the stolen signs.



Fact is often weirder than fiction.

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Benson blogged at 1/01/2008 04:59:00 PM.
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{Happy new year!!}


Yep, it's finally 2008!! Happy new year!!

I spent the early afternoon arranging photo frames (the presents) with Bran, Joel, Kenneth, Kevin, Jarrell and Darren. I spent $3.10 on a Taro Pie (yum) and a small Coke. We were talking about Jesus' life while we worked, because Kevin inspired the conversation with his Manga Messiah, a manga that depicted the life of Jesus Christ.


Manga Messiah is a graphic novel (comic book) based on the Bible. There have been other Bible based comics, but this is the only one actually written and illustrated by professional Japanese manga-ka. Which makes this a true manga (Japanese comic). Made by a Japanese group called NEXT.

There are some things that set it apart from traditional manga. All pages are printed in full color, which is rare in manga. Traditional Japanese manga is usually read from right to left, but this book was created to be read from left to right like American and European books. Although it was created in Japanese it was first published in English.

Manga Messiah tells the story of Jesus's life, based on the four gospels of the Bible: Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John.

(from Wikipedia.org)



We were discussing how the angel Gabriel looked like a girl in the book, and whether or not the Manga Bible (yep, there is one) was better than the Manga Messiah. (O.o) By the way, Jarrell was suffering from a headache / fever and he was holding a cup of ice to his head and declaring "aargh it hurts so badly!!" That sounds so familiar to me, so I know just how Jarrell feels. =D. I've been screaming it via SMS ever since I met her. LOL.

I thoroughly enjoyed myself at the appreciation dinner yesterday. Bran and myself had a blast playing Bang! (the greatest card game EVER!!), and I think we irritated the hell out of everybody present because of our character's special ability (Elena Fuente's "She can use any card as Missed!"), our Winchester gun and sheer dumb luck. And our cell group won the prize!!

Dinner was quite enjoyable as well (we ordered KFC!!). Uncle Wai Mun and myself did something funny: I had a half-full cup of Sarsi and Uncle WM came with a bottle of Pepsi and helped me refill my cup, saying "it's OK!". At the end we were both laughing when we realised what we had done.

Bran and I didn't go for the countdown party, so we left the bunch from Expo and trained home. Shaun said some encouraging stuff to me; he told me how usually people who convert to the Christian faith would usually influence his / her family members to convert as well. Well, let's just wait and see what happens, then.

It's the new year!!

P.S. I'm not ready to go back to school!!!! I'm too used to sleeping in the wee hours of the morning and not doing homework. o.O

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Benson blogged at 1/01/2008 11:34:00 AM.
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In Your freedom I will live;
All I am is Yours!